I spent the rest of the day crying, begging for another shot at life.
Ever been on your knees, on the bathroom floor asking God for a do over and in desperate need of hope?
That was me, a little over four years ago, looking for one glimmer of light to hold on to after losing what I thought was the job of my dreams. I was embarrassed and did not want to tell my husband that I screwed up any chance that the interviewers would choose me and let a great job slip through my hands. How could I do that and be so selfish? I could not even look at myself in the mirror.
God let me cry that day. I know He was there because His promises in His Word say that He will never leave me. But this time, I did not feel His presence. I felt alone and empty inside, broken in a million pieces, like a mirror shattered on the floor. The pain was intense. It ripped through my body in waves. At times, it choked the life right out of me.
In my brokenness, I cried out to Him and said, “God, please don’t let this be the last chance I have at a great job. I am sorry I messed it up all up. I want a job that I love going to, a job where I make a difference in the world, my dream job.”
About a week later, I attended a Health and Wellness Women’s conference. When the last speaker started talking, I found myself having the urge to run up on stage. Strange, I had never felt that before.
Stranger, is what happened next. I heard a voice. Not out loud, but in my head, say, “You can do that.” “What? No”, I said, “I could never do that.” Almost instantly, I heard “Yes. You can and you will.”
After the conference, I scheduled a call with the speaker. She is also a life coach and an author. Three words that I had heard before, but never all together: Speaker, Life Coach and Author. I really liked the sound of that. Those words felt like home to my soul.
She asked me what I wanted to talk about during our clarity session. I said, “I see a picture of a bridge on a wall in a room. I am talking to someone privately, but I am not sure what I am talking about.”
And that was the beginning of our Genesis story, the story of how Mirrors and Bridges got started. It was born out of the desire for wanting something better for my life and the life of my family. It was conceived in pain, at the bottom of a bathroom floor.
Mirrors and Bridges, llc was born on April 1, 2020, at the start of a global pandemic that changed the future of our world as we know it forever.
What is your Genesis story? What pain have you endured in your lifetime that you can use for good? Your story matters. It matters because you matter. There is no one else in this world like you. No one with your abilities, strengths or talents. You and your life stories are unique. The world needs to hear your stories of endurance, hope and courage. They will bring light into the world and lift us up when we need it most.
Four years ago, I needed you. I needed to hear your story because, I lost all hope in mine.
We all have a story. Have the courage to tell yours!
If any of this radiated in your heart and inspired you in any way, I would love to hear about it. I would also like you to join our Mirrors and Bridges Community. You can find me on social media platforms here: https://linktr.ee/melonieabenjamins
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